September 2010
44 posts
fill the [definition]
another call for a name change, as define the [blank] may sound a little more appetizing,
but on the flip side, a little more confusing i think.
lets say the world is already filled, mostly with nothing, but a little bit of something
and its up to us to define the [blank]
fill the [remembrance]
i guess i never realized how much i missed [blank].
a [relation]ship made on nothing but assumptions and guesses, and opportunities under the stars, made a finite amount of time seem infinite.
she was my nights.
beyond seemingly awkward giggles and broken defenses,
she was my nights.
questions and what if’s plague my mind, wondering if starry night occurrence may ever repeat...
“I have often regretted my speech, never my silence.”
– Xenocrates
fill the [OH MAN!]
the wonderful, wonderful things i would do to this woman to make her happy
[and the terrible terrible things i would do to this woman]
“On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.”
– Fight Club
fill the [blow]
that was a blow.
man, that was a blow, i cant believe i didnt see that one coming.
she’s making a choice, and i don’t think its going to be me.
in fact, right now, im sitting, doing homework with her right now.
dangerous? i think so, seeing as she has engagements already, ones that i am unrightfully butting into.
but everytime im with her i feel so good. i feel so great, i feel...
“i feel really ignored, no big deal.”
I’m reblogging this to show, that in reality, your not =)
“Like a fish, we are not aware of the “water” we live in.”
– Anonymous
fill the [greatness]
9x-7i > 3(3x-7u)
solve it for i!
“Bringing home the bacon could buy me all the bacon i could ever want.”
– Anonymous
fill the [switch]
it seems my interests have switched a bit, starting this summer, and coming into realization right about….now.
one of my first, and most important things noticed; gingers.
before, not a big fan, seeing as my only experiences with them, in excpetion to a few people like mick and emily, were that they were bitchy, spiteful creatures.
now, i think they are pretty damn awesome, and some of em...
fill the [grove]
its 10:36 and i still havent read for my ethnic studies class later today.
its 10:36 and im still stumbling upon awesome websites on the internet
its 10:36 and my roomate is power napping
its 10:36 and im enjoying a yogurt
its 10:36 and i really want to grab a coffee right now
its 10:36 and im doing what i want
its 10:36, and im having a great time.
fill the [annoyance]
this girls walks in here expecting me to have something with her, to sustain a relationship, when in reality, its nothing
she barges around, hoping that her sob stories and constant use of my things will make me want her. but i have no sympathy to offer, i have engaged enough, to put in any more would endanger becoming too involved and having a shitstorm of unwanted emotions attack me. plus, i...
fill the [relief]
i just spent a total of 3 days intensely searching for a song.
you know, one of those songs that gets stuck in your head, and it will simply not get out.
well, with the help of mick, i’ve finally found it.
and now im so fucking happy, like unexplainably happy, the song was where’s my mind by the pixies.
great song btw, listen to it asap!
fill the [website]
http://www.foundmagazine.com/
this website holds a collection of things that people have “found” amongst old rubbish and other books.
kind of like a blast from the past, which is, ironically, on a website.
fill the [game]
i have found a new code, simple and easy once you find it out.
so let the games begin.
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fill the [terror]
i just made one of the best or worst mistakes i could have pertaining to my little scale of relationships.
mistake may be a bad choice of words. i made a huge leap.
i did what i had told myself never to do. i went against all primal instinct, all forelearning, and every bit of conciousness i had and i said what was on my mind for once.
i was forward about my feelings and i was forward about...
“Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit; Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit...”
– Anon. but its a paraprosdokian [dont know what that is? look it up]
fill the [pride]
im left handed,
and it turns out in the cal poly bookstore, they have left handed spiral notebooks. i literally shat bricks, and bought two of them. they are by far, the coolest thing i have ever seen.
fun fact here, around 2500 left handers die a year from using right handed objects.
2500,
two and a half thousand!
thats a shit-ton of people.
[im onto my other right handed spiral binders...
fill the [identity]
“Without a racial identity, one is in danger of having no identity” -
When’s the last time you thought to yourself “because im so [input here], i am the person i am.
hopefully your answer was the same as mine; hardly ever.
[that’s powerful stuff, racial identity. even if your friends abandon you, your lover leaves you, your family banishes you, your clubs...
fill the [fun]
my dorm is the coolest.
we are the guys, the group, the crew, the regulators.
i couldnt imagine having more fun anywhere else.
thank you sequoia hall, for a great time, and college has yet to really start.
and so does the weekend!
fill the [fear]
just met | acquaintance | interested | friend zone| flirting | confused | friends | very interested | one night stand | one week thing | dating | one monther | three monther | year long | 5 year | married.
that is the scale of relationships. you can progress in three ways. you can take it linerarly, and get no where. you can skip around, jumping from one base to another, skipping certain zones....
fill the [recognition]
faces and names have become two completely different things now.
i see a face; name: [blank]
i hear a name; face: [blank]
or sometimes they just seem out of place. when you think of a jeff, a roxy, an amy, or an austin, you have a preset person you contrast this new contender with. and now, i have to completely remove the old person, and throw in a new one whom shares almost no qualities with...
fill the [jaded feeling]
WOW is finally over.
thank the lord!
sure i had a blast, no one can forget blasting california girls in my crazy leaders car, or dom’s volleyball serves, or intense talks with new found friends, but i’m glad it’s over.
time for activities now!
just moved around my dorm room, more pictures up later, but its the sickest, like literally the coolest thing around.
the coolest.
...
“I’m having trouble trying to sleep.
I’m counting sheep but running...”
– Brain Stew, Green Day
fill the [disappointment]
im having a shitty day. i have to go out and admit, behind this laughing face and smiling eyes, im terrified, jaded, and over all just not in a good mood. words arent coming easy to me today. where once i could talk to strangers instantly, now i find myself choking on my own words.
it’s already on the schedule that tonight will be the night i sleep. a lot. even if it means missing...
fill the [college life]
today is wednesday, my third day in college so far.
today is my third day, and i’ve been having a blast.
i’m currently sitting in my dorm, eating captain crunch peanut butter crunch, and listening to biggie smalls.
life’s good, but that’s not all.
everyone here is friendly, everyone here is confused, lost scared, and even intimidated. it makes for the best atmosphere....
“Slow is smooth. Smooth is fast.”
– USMC
fill the [stream of consciousness]
starting with: my left speaker
noise sound green day brain stew sleep im bad at that i need to sleep more i want to listen to more good music my hand is typing really really fast i like this riff i am not using peroids this is very fun it is getting quite now i love quiet thngs i need to be in a queit palce i really want ot sleep i want to party so i can sleep better if i party ythrn i might see...
“Opinions of nocturnal love, without poets charm of wit,
misunderstood to...”
– Tonight Is Alive - Broadway Calls
fill the [good bye]
lights blind me as i walk towards the subaru. those same headlights light my way back, from not memory lane, but from a part of town still a mystery, in which i have confided some of my most intense memories.
those same lights opened me up to a venture, opened me up to hug and embrace, for the seemingly last time of embrace. hushed voice and heavy breath compliment the already quiet night, as...
“These shining eyes are just a mirror for the sun”
– Red Hot Chili Peppers
“I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.”
– HP
“Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted.”
– John Lennon
fill the [confusion]
what happens in vegas, stays in vegas.
[unless of coarse you feel like sharing. the only way two people can keep a secret is if one of them is dead.]
amist burning throats and gatorade, fun was had last night. before i knew it, i was having a great time, abusing the word “legit” and making funny faces at the others less aware than i.
last night was a blast.
[a 5 way kiss? who had...
fill the [anguish]
what makes this one so awkward really? come on and just talk you [idiot!]
i know you can do it. i know you can. i know you have done it, so really, what makes this different
no background is what, you hhave no idea what to expect, or how to react.
your on your own now.
thats how its going to be for a long time coming. [your a big boy now, take your own steps]
falling out of the old to stumble...
fill the [want]
what i want: [i] say whats on my mind, how it is, unaltered, and with only slight check as to who its going to affect.
what i realy want: to be able to talk freely
what i’ve got: a checking conscious and a nervous ego.
rage.
fill the [command inquiry]
command prompt[c/]:… [date: 9/01/2010]
c/start up: [booting up…][progress 100%][verifying databases..][checking memory…][running OS thogervo-v1.18…][starting…][ready…]
c/inquire status of ventures: [bringing up databases…] please specify venture…
c/venture #1: [checking…] status: incomplete. further action is required to complete. c/progress venture #2: [checking…] 95%. c/analyze further action:...
fill the [white out]
my heart is pounding. its all i can hear right now. just that, and the measily breathes im able to take, while my body pushes for bigger gulps.
its begging for them.
my heart starts to hurt. not a sharp pain, just something that is a constant reminder that you need to do that more often.
my thighs burn. and ever so slowly they start to fatigue, i cant hold this up for much longer.
but to my...
