August 2010
41 posts
fill the [inquiry]
Zip.
Zilch.
Nada.
nothing is really just the absence of having anything. So how can you have nothing? How can a vacuum emptyess like space be a something that you can own?
“Through wisdom a house is built, And by understanding it is established; By...”
– Proverbs 24:3-4
fill the [need]
used to be damn difficult to fall asleep, i think i’ve found my cure!
wake up by 9, bike ride everyday.
solid plan i think.
also found out that if you think about sleeping while trying to sleep, you absolutely cannot. throws my mind into a spiral and makes me restless. damn mind.
also heard something about sleep paralysis. apparently if you lie on your back, and stay completely still,...
fill the [sweat]
the more i ascend, the harder my legs furiously peddle and peddle. the longer i go, the more i can hear my pounding heart and breath over my music. i take a look down at my bike, my gears read 2, 3. this is nothing, i think. i have yet to challenge this trail, and it has yet to challenge me. the escalator, they call it, but i know its nothing like that, instead of being lazily pushed up this hill,...
fill the [exhaustion]
i just wrote a short story. you should read it.
today was also a great day. i am the proud new owner of a nerf gun. i got to use it quite a bit today, because my younger cousins and i had a nerf war. i’m really going to miss that, going away to college. but god help me if i start feeling sad now, i still have a month!
hopefully, you’ll remember me, i don’t want to disappear.
fill the [story]
The day the world forget Tim V. Greiner:
It was a pleasant day, by the time Tim had woken up, one of those lazy sunday type of days where all you want to do is loof around. It was on these kind of days, however, that all the work got done that needed to be done in the world. With the feeling of sunday, came the feeling of the end. the end of the week, the end of the month maybe, and even possibly...
fill the [awe]
a dull roll stumbles across the parking lot. heard with music, this could be misstaken as a lost bass beat, but here, in the silence, i know exactly what it is. then slowly, pings are heard on my tan ceiling, through my green roof. they become steady and more in number. mark 5-10 shouts out to me: “we are legion, for we are many.”
many indeed. hundreds of droplets do nothing at all....
fill the [mess]
today was nothing short of a mess. started unorganized. ended without a real finish. even among the failed wakeboarding trips, the wasted gas, the undecided dinners, and the seemingly endless waiting, i seemed to enjoy this mess. little things happened that made me feel great:
i won the lottery. well, a scratcher, worth one dollar, which is how much i paid. so really, i just got the winning...
fill [in] the [possible confusion]
the more i think about it, the more confusing my titles are. how can you fill an emotion? maybe its time for a name change, from fill the [blank], to fill in the [blank].
on second thought, i really like that. from here on out, this is fill in the [blank].
[amen to that!]
following the idea, however, i guess you can fill up an emotion. the title is the actually body of the post, and then the...
fill the [relaxation]
http://www.endlessyoutube.com/watch?v=PoPL7BExSQU
some smooth jazz.
http://www.rainymood.com/
some smooth rain-ambiance.
caution! mix at your own risk! [although i highly recommend it!]
side affects can include: drowsiness; relaxation; feel-good; urges to play the piano, smoke a fine cigar, enjoy a nice evening with a dame [;], and/or read a book; and ED.
fill the [fakedom]
it just so happens that this is fake.
how do i know? because i’ve seen it. [and seeing is believing, you don’t need more proof than that]
it just so happens that one day,
i saw life glitch. like something you’d see on a computer, or a slow you tube video. the world, or more specifically, two characters, just glitched all the sudden.
it just so happens that one day,
i saw...
fill the [intrigue]
for a second there, something didn’t quite match. i followed the night sky, and found the milky way. as a patchy, whitish cloud that seemed to have floated too high in the sky.
and for a second there, i saw the sky, the universe, rip in two.
it was very subtle, just a bright flash of light, right on the seems of the milky way.
i saw life, i saw existance, i saw emptiness and the void. i...
fill the [senses]
smell. touch. sight. taste. and sound.
the five ways you communicate with the world. the five things that entitle you to be just like everything else complicated on this planet.
smell. most strongly connected with memory, and taste. we all know it, too, the smell of bacon and waffles in the morning instantly brings pleasure to our minds and our hungry stomachs. it brings memory of a time where...
fill the [shoes]
like a dream, i can’t remember how exactly this conversation got started, but i liked the idea, and now im sharing.
why do we wear shoes? well, why the hell not?
i mean, human feet, upon fierce weathering, are completely capable of being guardians of our very fragile soles [puns!]. or maybe it’s the soles that harden, whatever it is, we have adequate protection from...
fill the [creation]
i am lego.
the building block of everything you’ve ever wanted.
i am yours. [some assembly required!]
“I wish I was in that Mercedes Benz, sealed away from my sins. I’d have the...”
– Cake - “Carbon Monoxide”
fill the [chance]
“Don’t close your eyes. For the love of everything you cherish don’t close your eyes. Who knows what will happen if you do.” my mind chides.
I try it, just for kicks. I feel as if my one safety line keeping me solid to the earth has just gently said good bye and left me. My body, and everything I am is jerked from side to side, fast, and then slow with the changing of the...
Fill the [rave]
Boom. Boom. Boom.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
Hmm. Hmm. Hmm.
Bmm. Bmm. Bmm. Bmm.
Slowly this beating drives itself into your skull, taking over electricL pathways and causing legs, arms, and heads to nod to the intoxicating poison. Slowly the suspension builds, more smaller minds of noise augment and create an even more toxic elexir. Your ears can do nothing but drink it in, like antifreeze, this...
fill the [mistake]
that title seems a little more ominous then this post, hmm, ill have to work on that.
it seems i have become accustomed to a 12 to 2 wake cycle. this is something i need to break. now. i mean, im still groggy, and its 1. not only does this make me feel like a lazy bum, i also get this fleeting feeling that there is really life before the afternoon. studies have yet to prove whether or not life...
“When a man cannot choose, he ceases to be a man.”
– Prison Chaplain, from “A Clockwork Orange”
fill the [intensity]
it seems that two worlds have leaked into one. my life, and [blank].
i’m not crazy, not yet at least, and i know that what i am, and what i want to be perceived as can be two different things. defense systems, corruption, power, and control are all tools under which i am learning, under which i am slowly being replaced. i will still be there, but when i have finally learned the trade, you...
fill the [uncertainty]
i don’t feel solid. so many time i just want to stand still and let myself set, become rigid, and defined. but sitting leads to nothing, and movement only compounds the problem.
even now, i have typed so much, but a frigid mind and a protective system make me delete and erase it all. what is there to be afraid of?
you.
in all honesty, you terrify me. not in a dark setting, scary movie...
“The number of places in paradise is limited; only in hell is entry open to all.”
– Metro 2033
fill the [frustration]
damn computer is going to be the death of me. you’d think that when you got a new machine it should run pretty smoothly? well, mine spawned right from passive-aggressive hell. works fine when i need it, for the moment, but slowly, more and more things are coming to my attention, that i haven’t a clue on how to ever start on. [thank you internet!]
I’ll fix you, damn HP G62, if...
fill the [feel]
tonight was great. had a blast. im so glad i went out.
[while my conscious drones, here’s what my subconscious is yelling]
tonight was great. [blank] is one of a kind. that being said, i am awkward. sure i had a blast, but its a new new new experience. i have nothing to expect, and a lot of anticipate. constantly i am on overdrive, figuring, analyzing, seeing what works and what doesnt....
“Men get arrested. Dogs get put down.”
– Rorschach
fill the [rush]
im nervous. actually, actually nervous. then again i’ve always felt this way when something was about to happen. but im so anxious, i have high expectations, not of [removed], but of myself. you know how the whole societal structure works. if you’ve got testosterone and a pair of balls then you do the work. even after the hard work and nerve-break, the quality of your work is then...
