October 2010
60 posts
fill the [halloween]
well, tonight was interesting.
wine, alcohol, pregaming and fun filled the before.
walking and dancing and sketchy parties and cops scared the then.
now i am sitting here, contemplating sleep and all things great.
im also wondering if im going to hate myself tomorrow morning.
god damn you sleep cycles, god damn you halloween
god damn you collapsed lung, god damn you ridiculous women.
all i...
“Fall seven times; stand up eight.”
– Japanese proverb
fill the [embarassment]
oh gin and tonic,
or alcohol for that fact,
you make me infamous in this hall,
[summersaults, British accents, yak and drunken roommates]
fill the [interest]
apparently, i talk in british accents and do summer saults when im drunk
right now, i cant feel my lips,
what does that mean?
right now, i have a lot of conflicting emotions, i want to see some people so bad.
good night san diego!
fill the [fun]
oh gin and tonic
where would i be without you?
“You live and learn. At any rate, you live.”
– Douglas Adams
fill the [confusion]
according to my ipod clock, it is;
Sunday, January 4, 1970. 6:10 AM
keep in mind that this clock is in contact with the internet, so what the hell?
fill the [bad days]
today has not been good.
[fuck it, its been terrible.]
fill the [emotion]
a challenger appears.
this one i can deal with. easy association and masculinity have this one in the box. i attack easily, passively, as to not damage the opponent, but establish dominance.
i am the king.
a challenger appears.
this one im unfamiliar with. bigger, faster, better. maybe even more intelligent.
my attacks are useless, like a shy child i do nothing but my current activity;...
fill the [day]
today was full of a lot of things, namely good byes and studying.
don’t quite know what to think of it though. so much has seemed to enter and pushed to the back to be processed later.
ideas, thoughts, sounds, and sights are jumbled in the back of my mind, i want to sort it out, and the closest ive come to that has been through sitting and breathing, ironic, because the only way to clean...
fill the [idea]
you dont have to be a magician to blow my mind,
you dont have to be an emt to save me,
you dont have to be a doctor to know something is wrong,
you dont have to be my preacher to bore me,
you dont have to be a romantic to love me,
you dont have to be her to ignore me,
you dont have to be a game to be entertaining,
you dont have to be my clothes to touch me,
you just have to be honest.
fill the [excitement]
well, you know…
fill the [relaxation]
today, i busted a lung.
well, actually yesterday i did that, but i suffer now from a partially collapsed right lung.
fun stuff?
i think so. now i have copious amounts of codiene for coughing suppressent purposes.
but who really reads labels anyways?
“Another flaw in the human character is that everybody wants to build and nobody...”
– Kurt Vonnegut Jr
fill the [oddity]
teh hell?
why is tumblr purple?
fill the [llif]
good night.
and good riddance.
sleep comes to the worthy,
and the worthy come to sleep.
“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything....”
– Guatama Buddha
fill the [insanity]
imagine you are strapped to a chair.
you can see out of your peripherals, but your eyes and head are pointed to the sky.
your body is tied down, but you can reach your arms out, you can move your fingers.
you are in the middle of this black, black place, where nothing and everything is.
suddenly, every known color of the world starts to creep into your sight. they dance around you, in your...
fill the [encouragement]
tonight i found out that it really pays off to think.
it pays off to stop, stare, think, analyze and assess.
tonight i found out that it really paid off working to be how i am.
tonight i found out that i am all i’ve worked to be.
tonight i found out that i hate everything that i do, because i have thought it that way.
tonight i found out that i love everything i do because i have...
fill the [morning after]
wake up in the morning feeling like p-diddy
[i wish]
woke up feeling fine, it seems that everyone else had a shitty night though. i have yet to face the consequences of my other self, it happens to get me in trouble a lot.
maybe tonight will yield different options
[wish me luck]
fill the [fun]
recruiting friends for tonight: $0
having a great time with a highlighter and my arm under a blacklight: $0
having a fun time getting into a party, and then dancing on counters and with lampsahdes: $0
having a great weekend: priceless
for everything else, theres alcohol.
[edit: what the hell?]
fill the [sacrifice]
http://pgstudios.org/immortall.html
if this doesnt evoke any emotions, learn to live.
fill the [decisions]
having serious contemplations about joining a frat.
not only would this ensure entrance into cool social activities [well, you know], this would mean i would have another brotherhood to belong too.
down side is, it costs around 200 big ones a quarter, and it will lower my grades.
plus there is always initiation. terrifying stuff right there.
who ever knew you could pay for friends?
fill the [wake up call!]
good morning!
fill the [dictionary]
favorite word: shit-ton
why? because its a great way to define exactly how many drinks he had, or how much homework you have tonight[to name a few uses…]
least favorite word: won’t
why? [stick with me here] would not = wouldn’t. could not = couldn’t. should not =shouldn’t. will not = won’t. wtf? THAT BREAKS THE RULES! it should be willn’t. sounds...
“Data is not information, information is not knowledge, knowledge is not...”
– Clifford Stoll
fill the [need]
a familiar face distorted by pixels.
a sound voice crackled by pops and interruptions.
an idea, an object, a thing, a person.
more like the phantom of; a trace of an idea, the shadow of an object, the idea of the thing, the hallucination of the person.
but still, it satisfies the want, the need. tricked senses dont believe for long though, theyre smarter than that. hands anticipate a touch....
fill the [intensity]
sweet mother of god, this girl may replace shakira in my book. and thats saying something. jennifer anniston still triumphs this one though.
fill the [rage]
two midterms tomorrow. my brain is officially full of all things psych and ethnic studyish.
wish me luck.
ever better, send me care packages!
fill the [intensity]
who knew a simple hello could make my day?
fill the [neighborhood]
damn you, roommate, for leaving for home this weekend and forgetting to turn off your alarm clock!
fill the [game]
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fill the [revelation]
i found something out this week. its something thats been on my mind for a while, just never really took the time to think about it really.
your night is the best predictor for the day to come. i find that if my day is absolute shit, and then i have a great 30 minutes before i go to bed, my next day is just great. and vice versa.
some other things i’ve noticed:
is that i spread judgement...
fill the [oddness]
went to a lake with a wakeboarding crew today.
it was only until i was half way through my 50 minute ride to the lake did i realize that i was in a car with complete strangers, going somewhere i had never been, and was about to spend the weekend getting intoxicated with people i had never met.
this makes for an awkward mind set.
espescially when its 11 guys and two girls.
the wakeboarding was...
fill the [neighborhood]
i have a neighbor.
who i think may be gay.
he is always trying to make contact, he tries to shake my hand, tries to give me hugs.
and these arent the typical 3 second man hug with a back pat and a “sup man”.
these are tight, aggresive, longing hugs that end in me trying to escape from those thin steel like arms that refuse to budge.
maybe he is a little offset by being in an all...
fill the [neighborhood]
i have a neighbor.
he’s kind of odd.
he comes into my room, and doesnt say anything at first, just allows me to kill the empty silence, and then just observes, or tinkers with things
he reminds me of someone who has seen a bike for the first time, examining its parts and its body, trying to figure out what it does.
then he talks, and its usually just weird things.
like my roommate...
fill the [routine]
wake up.
make bed.
shower.
put clothes on.
eat [lucky charms, cheerios, captain crunch, trix].
facebook.
make coffee.
eat yogurt.
get ready.
drink coffee.
leave for class.
[sounds like a good routine to me!]
fill the [belief]
“i think, therefor, i am”
my psych class has shed a new light onto this statement.
because of the way i identify myself, i do better.
because of the way i think of myself, i do better.
it’s amazing how far a little self confidence, and a little bit of belief can go.
i think, therefor i can do, i can succeed, and i can try.
i think, therefor i can win, i can love, and i can...
